Man oh man did I have a stink attitude today.
This picture with my mom and the shawls…it took all I had to get that smile on. Seconds before we took the picture I couldn’t stop the tears from falling. I could list all the reasons that the stink was all over me but then it would just be marinating in it again.
I don’t think my mom wanted to catch the stink think so after we got this picture to share with the ladies that donated the shawls to us she left. I then called Tammy to whine a bit more. Letting that stink marinate all over the place.
I took a break from the stink think to send the shawl picture directly to the church’s Facebook page. I really was touched by the gesture of these ladies, most who do not know me or my mom, taking time to make these shawls and pray over them for us. The simple act of telling them how grateful I was started to make me feel better. I decided to try it out some more in other situations. I felt so much better that I even got a little cheesy and said out loud, gratitude is the attitude.
I left my house and went to the Giving Tuesday event at my work. Chiropractic Wellness Center/Stress Knot Massage was there giving chair massages for donations. Their presence allowed me to give back via donation and show gratitude for my team who has been keeping our projects rolling while I have been out. I’m not cleared to get a massage yet but it was good to be out, be seen and be in the company of my co-workers who were getting some much deserved self-care.
It might feel like I’m grateful rambling so what’s the take away from this post? Well before cancer, I had stank attitude days. Normally I would tell someone about it and then someone else, and then maybe somebody else. Each time I would work myself up all over again and build up a lot of ick that festered inside.
Today I tried something new. I looked for the things that bring magic to my life and it helped turn that attitude around. Things like a shawl, a hug from my mom, text messages from friends of the adorableness in their lives sprinkles of humor, an opportunity to give back to my team, a wonderful surprise from someone who has grown into a friend, a hug from Carl and a phone call from my niece.
My fortune cookie tonight said “Perhaps you’ve been a little too focused on yourself”. My initial reaction was well that’s rude…but maybe it’s right.
